
“The Peace Ripper”
Charcoal, pencil and watercolor on paper
©Alf Sukatmo. 2015
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With fascination i watched her
For me, it was a sense of intimate flirtation without being exist
I never thought that we ever be connected anyway
Then at one night
We fell for each other
Did i love her or did she?
At first, no
We fell into our mutual need
Mutual desperation
Only to satisfied our longing
We both loved our darkness
I sat there on the big chair
Quietly watched her danced
No, not dance, floated
The air that surrounded us suddenly became thin
I choked
She stopped, hesitated
She knew i was watching
But could never saw me
She stood silently for a moment
She walked toward the chair, i sensed the heat
She felt the same
She had sweated through her dress
Believe me, i tried to warned her
I knew she suffocated
I did too
Her body shocked with terror
But never retreated
She touched my face
“It is you,” she said
Our hands reached out on empty air
Caressed on nothing
Two substances from different world
Weren’t supposed to be together
I hugged the emptiness of her
Though the intense heat burning our bodies
I hugged her still
Painful as always
It was pain that led to our non existence
We were just ghost to each other
“My dear, don’t you worry
At nightfall
Our story will repeat again”
I heard her faint whispered
As i slowly faded
Away
…..
….
22nd July 2015
Let me take you to a journey
A voyage of lunacy
Tonight
You and me
You as me
Me as you
Inside
Both
Naked
Lost
Lust
Love
Madly falling into each other
And embracing hate
At the same time
At the exact moment
Leaving the world behind
No past or unknown future
And everything will be alright
Now
Stay awake
Dream will not dare to stab us
I kiss her pale blue lips gently
Her eyes wide open, her skin wither
People enter our bedroom, barging in the barricading door, some come through after smashing the windows. The men dragging me outside the room as i see the other covering her with a white blanket.
I fight, with a blade that i hid on my waist.
Too many of them..
Too many..
Too..many..
Something hit my head, hard
I see it now
Red
Same red that seeping the white blanket
Oozes of red that turn to black
I am falling into
Nothingness
21st July 2015
Versus II (out of balance)
Alf Sukatmo. 2015
Charcoal, pencil on paper.
When nature
Become a mere reflection
On the oxygen mask
But what hidden beneath
From one seed remains
A bud will grows
“Calavera XVI” Alf Sukatmo. Pencil on paper. 2014.
My pray will be her protection My love will keep her sanity An oath that i have took Will keep her away Safe from my touch
3 Desember 2014
A touch I can not A kiss I never dare to dream My caress Would make you bleed The longing that you felt The blood-lust that i had I am a wolf Whose falling in love With a deer
Tgr, October 2014
“Quiet moment” by Alf Sukatmo. Pencil on paper.
Tangerang Selatan.
19/06/2014 – 03.00
Aku ditelan burung besi
Dipandu perempuan cantik bergincu
Dengan gaun terbelah hampir ke pantat
Didudukkannya aku
Di antara nona yang tidur pura-pura
dan lelaki yang sibuk bermain game di iphone-nya
Ditempatkannya aku
Pada alam antara
Antara mungkin hidup
Dan bisa saja mati
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Kau dan aku
Tidur di atas selimut
Berpelukan telanjang
tanpa kasur
tanpa ranjang
Dalam kamar yang dingin
Dalam diam
Seperti tersiksa kebisuan
Kau pecahkan dengan bisikmu
Aku ingin dua atau tiga anak untuk melengkapi kita
Biar cinta juga yang menghangatkan kita
Kamar ini makin dingin
Karena kita tak mampu beli kaca jendela
Hanya menggantinya dengan kassa
Agar nyamuk-nyamuk tak seliar kita bercinta
Ya. Aku ingat
Ahhh, mungkin sebotol Heineken akan cukup
bisa membuatku lupa
Tentang aku dan kamu dan sejarah yang getir
Mungkin
satu pak rokok akan bisa menggambarkan lagi
tentang asa dan janji dalam imaji gumpalan asapnya
Atau bahkan
mungkin akan sirna karena asap tetaplah asap
Seperti aku dan kamu
Tidur bersama dalam satu selimut
Terpisah jeda bukan lagi satu
dalam kamar mewah
dengan jendela berkaca
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